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Two Things I Learned From Five-year-old Me

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My parents love sending me stuff from my past. Whether it’s trinkets, artwork, or awards, they occupy my mailbox, then my counter, then finally my recycle bin. (Sorry mom and dad if you thought I was saving that stuff.) Each package is prefaced with a heads-up email I receive roughly three days prior. Upon receipt, Lesley and I review the contents and celebrate my wondrous childhood. In other words, we smile and laugh at the thought of five-year-old me putting hard work and creativity into something resembling a dried poop smear on off-white construction paper. Not all of my art, or awards, are laughable, but all of them are well-received and remind me I’m just a human. I’m just a human and my successes (and inevitable failures) are relative. A poop-smear painting to thirty-one-year-old me may have seemed like a Picasso to my younger self. I also realized the now unaccredited grade schools I attended gave out a lot of…

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The Engagement Paradox

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I recently popped the question. A bubble floating around in front of me had the words “will you marry me” nested inside it and I took a pretty little diamond ring and poked right through it. “Yes.” That’s what she said. Over the course of two weeks I have heard, “so, when/where are you guys getting married?” from every single person we have delivered the news to, whether via text message (SMS), multi-media message (MMS), phone call, social media, or the grapevine several of my friends/family keep referencing. Some of those in the know have even inquired twice. Is that something that needs to be established right away? Is it similar to engagement photos, selecting a wedding cake, buying a house, having kids, and joint-checking accounts? I do not think life should work like that. Why can’t the date and location remain TBD for a week, or a month? Why can’t the exact date and location be a non sequitur…

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Why I Avoid The News

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On the way to dinner last evening, my girlfriend began reading the local news that took place over the past few days. Three alcohol-related car accidents, which resulted in two deaths; a sexual assault; and an argument at a night club that ended in gunfire, injuring five and killing three others. The driver in the fatal head-on collision fled the scene – leaving their passenger in critical condition and the female driver of the other car dead. Both driver and passenger fled the scene in another accident after rolling their car, but the passenger was later caught. Five people’s lives are over, a woman will likely have permanent physical and psychological damage, and two cowards have yet to be brought to justice. This local news could have happened anywhere in the US, and likely did – in some cases to even more of an extreme. I like believing there are good people in the world, and there are; unfortunately, the…

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Share More, Thanks

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I began writing this last December, but finally feel it’s time to share…. Today, I was among the few recipients of a touching and overwhelmingly kind email from someone very dear to me. —— I want to express my appreciation and love to you. I know e-mail is a bit impersonal…I would much rather be with you face-to-face, but it is what we have. This past year has been really difficult for me with finishing school and moving to a new city. I have had a lot of fear around me “growing up” and venturing out on my own, leaving the comfort of school, and having you all so far away. Regardless, it is the knowing that you are supporting and loving me where you are…that knowing keeps me strong and happy. It has been ten years since [mom’s]┬ádeath, and we all have seen so much happen. I pretend…in my mind, imagine her at those moments. I cry because I…

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Once Upon a Time

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If I grow up (ya right) and end up wondering: “What if (insert anything I hesitated to do)…” I’ll be extremely disappointed. Since SNL was actually worth watching, I’ve wanted to write a book, a screenplay, something remarkable, and I have yet to complete it – whatever it is, or ends up becoming. To that end, I’ve decided to join a meetup group in the evenings which forces me to sit down, shut up, and write. Hey! That’s the name of the group! Every other idea1 in my Mokeskine┬« is on hold until I finish what I’ve started. [1] This includes my excuse-a-day desk calendar, with excuses for why you were late/absent or made a mistake.

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My Favorite Part

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I received a call tonight – actually, several. The call referenced sixty-five characters ago, (you have no idea how long it took to get that figure), was from my younger sister, Stephanie. She’s a good one; good sister that is. She called to wish me luck on my bike ride and tell me the three words she won’t let a conversation end without. Kinda got to me. Enough to sit down while in the midst of packing and write her first blog… Three weeks ago, I spent two-and-a-half hours in the thick, humid air that we labeled “Saturday” watching softball with my little sister. We arrived as the first game’s high-fives were in progress and judging by my brother’s team’s positive attitudes, they won. My role is a difficult one; challenging at times, but always worth it. It requires my attention 24/7…I’m always on the clock. Even two days ago when my c-sectioned follower called just to say she loves…

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